When your hormones are going crazy, your moods can be crazy too.I don't know wth's up with me lately, but my moods are all over the place. Silly things can make me tearful and sensitive, and at other times I find myself getting stroppy and crabby for no reason at all. I don't seem to be able to concentrate at school. I can't control my temper with friends because their worries just seem so trivial compared to this. Not only my friends are getting fed up with me neither I! I don't know what to do. I just don't see the point of school anymore.
Sometimes I just wish that I could sleep and sleep and never ever wake up. Never to feel myself and any feelings ever again. For all I know, I know that there might be other people who're experiencing worst matters than me, but this feeling is
KILLING. Though they go by the phrase "actions speaks louder than the words", some happenings make me feel like words could be much more murderous than actions. Mentally, deep, thrusting. Into the heart.
Alright, it's all my fault. My fault for everything wrong thing that occurred. I'm !@#$%^&*( super stressed out now. Let me stress on the word stress -
STRESS! Why can't my day be perfect for once? I'm so unhappy. Happy that I've started studying, yes just like hours ago and I mugged all the way. But what I got at the end of the day is just, well equally stress. I hope at least the things I've studied did stay in my mind for long. If not ... I don't know. Stress is good and bad at times. I really need a punching bag now. And I don't think I ever want to get on MSN whenever I'm studying.
A HUGE MISTAKE. Stupid thing is, whenever you're free, nobody never talks to you. While whenever you're busy, people keep pestering you. I don't mind the fact they cure my boredom or whatsoever, but I hate it when they purposely annoy pfft. Gosh, I'm so pissed off I don't care who am I scolding. Screw life, I don't ever wish to survive, if I'm required to suffer everytime. There will come a day when I will
scream at the top of my lungs because of all of the frustration and pekcek-ness that is built inside of me.
Story: Stickman looks down and wanna jump. (Conclude: Angle of depression) Fail pig looks up and see who is the stupid stickman who wants to jump. (Conclude: Angle of elevation). Btw it's bout trigonometry and and I like the pig cause it has THREEEE FEEEEEELERS. Drawing very fail lah whatever. Okay not helping
*sighs********
Boohoo copied from private blog. Hormones. Glad is
no more stress! This very first week after exams are not as relaxing as I thought it'd be. Checking of papers after papers adds up to the fear of even looking at any black and white scripts!
*phobia of knowing anymore results* gotten back most of the subjects except English, Physics and Modern Maths, will update it here as soon as I receive others back. And *sighs* I didn't do well this time, blame nobody else but myself for slacking so much this year. Gonna buck up girl :)
You might want to skip this part. Vain talking cause I have nothing better to blog about.
I THINK I'M THAT CRAZY FOR SAYING THIS BUT I'M STILL GONNA SAY IT!
I HAVEN'T STAYED UP TILL SO LATE FOR BERRRYY LONG!*gives retarded face* I know it's stupid thank you boohoo. But all I remembered that the last time I stayed up so late was to
stalk people on facebook rush my homework/wtvr. Anyway, it was just unpleasant! Never felt so great staying up for a long time. SERIOUSLY! On second thought. Probably I should go to bed soon too. Needa wake up early tomorrow! Oh it's okay. Alarm clock would do the job. Crap, I'm so fickle-minded nowadays!
Slept at 2am last night. Blocked nose. Couldn't breathe. Woke up in the middle of the night. Stumbled out of bed for
Breathe Right (If you know what's that). So the next day was oh-so-sleepy day. Mum lied to me that we're going Penang and nobody would fetch me to Melisa's house. See see we went Sunway instead pfft -.-
Lunched at Pizza Hut cause I have
3 vouchers for Pizza Hut! AMAZING EHH *flips hair* I collected them since the beginning of the years boohoo. Okay nothing to be proud of pfft.
Feel like lala-ing with my vouchers :P
Honestly I forget most about what I want to post lalala.
OH THIS IS LALA POWER! *laughs in lala way*P/S : I crap so much in this post. I'm lacking of inspirations!
P/P/S: Oh yeah Happy Birthday ShuYing! :)
Love, Ivon
